Hey y’all, Happy Tuesday!! I dreamed all last night about this blog! Last night before bed I was tagged in a fb post concerning mental health and knew immediately that was next on the list!
So the question of the day is How is your mental health?? A lot of times when you say mental…people automatically assume crazy,and that’s just not true. Mental health to me means how well is your thought life and how well do you mentally compartmentalize and process information.
My mom died when I was 14, but prior to that she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Somewhere after being diagnosed with breast cancer and prior to death she had a mental breakdown and was admitted to a mental rehabilitation center. All I could remember thinking at 13 years old, what is really going on?? Visiting her was the hardest thing ever…to see her in a facility,shaking and not even talking to anyone! Omg!! I can’t describe to y’all how hurt and devastating that was. I’m still not sure what was the moment of her breaking point.
My next experience…Fast forward to years later(about 3 years ago) after I had my daughter. I experienced a lot of anxiety and panic attacks and it brought me back to that place that my mom was. I knew I had to get myself together and take back control over my mental health! I secluded myself,I was in a bubble…if it wasn’t about me or that little baby I wasn’t doing it. My husband took responsibility for the bigger kids and he let me breathe and get my mind and thoughts back together. I believe after a traumatic pregnancy and also having a premature baby, really got to me. I was going to the hospital everyday,not sleeping and not taking the time to recover properly. So once everything got normal and she came home I had so many thoughts and feelings that I hadn’t dealt with. I knew I couldn’t be any help for anyone if I did have a break down so I became selfish until I could handle everything.
I haven’t had a panic attack in almost two years. I’ve learned my trigger points and I’ve also learned when to be selfish. So that’s a snippet of my story,feel free to share yours or any input or questions on mental health!